Oh no

T0620 May 7, 2021 3:06 pm

I want to give the seme some chance before but nah this chapter is my last straw. Something is OFF. I genuinely feel like the seme is in this relationship with that "no emotional string" mindset and will probably gets seriously turned off when his partner got genuinely in love and clingy because of it.

Worst part is that I kinda understand him since I'm sort of similar to him in that regards (although probably on a different spectrum). I do enjoy giving attention, care and love but man, if those were to be returned to me...

a) It's gonna turn everything VERY awkward cuz I wouldn't know how to react. It's hard to adapt to receive when you have always been giving, and it's gonna be worse if you genuinely took pleasure in giving. Being at the receiving end will be like a whole new world to you, which lead to the next point...

b) My knee-jerk instinct in this kind of strange new situation would be to run the heck away in the OPPOSITE direction. I wouldn't be surprised if Si-Eon attempted the same thing.

Idk, I might be projecting myself a lot but dang I think Si-Eon is going to be more elusive and distant the more Namwoo returned the affection. Hell, he was already showing the signs. Notice when he seemed to be stunned when Namwoo was being more affectionate and attempt to give him the love? That was "oh shit" moment for me cuz I know that I will attempt to break all contact (or at least deter my partner from trying to return the love) if that was me in Si-Eon's shoes. Not even gonna be surprised if Si-Eon ended up attempting to end the whole thing due to that whole internal conflict between his needs to give pleasure without all the emotional strings versus the genuine love that Namwoo tries to give him. Someone needs to intervene and makes them talk through this ASAP if they even want to see a light of hope that this relationship can work.

I hope that I was wrong though. Maybe it's just the awkwardness of new budding relationship. Maybe they will be fine and there will be no drama in the horizon. Maybe I'm just overthinking this. They are really cute together. (┳Д┳)

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