I will not make sense

I still have not move on from Aki and power's death so reading this in one sitting was a very very bad Idea... I feel so... Numb---also... Did he just diced his crush into bite size pieces and put them in containers then had her for breakfast? I think I just lost half of my sanity reading this manga--but like is it fine to feel so freaking elated how he's in school rn?!--- bruuuhhh the gakuran looks fire on youuuuuuuu~~~~

I am a mess... I miss power.