I just read this but why does this feel gay? Is this bl

It's not, it's pretty much action and a bit or maybe a lot of angst

Can u elaborate on the angst? Im weak to that kind of stuff. Cant really handle it

The angst is related to betrayal and the fact that you can't take back what you've already done. It's not all angst dw, it's still a good story, just a bit of angst. The manhwa is upto date with it so I'd suggest to read it. Or if you can't handle angst rn, just save this story for later