So he raised the guy hopre to sky only to drop him to ground

Victim blaming is not cute :/
Mc did not rape the other guy in hs. The guy did rape the mc

You should proabbly reread the story and change morally so that you don't go on blaming the victim :)

Lmao, i had to log in to reply your comment. You cant discern rape and voluntary?

but dohyun didn't rape sungho in hs, he wasn't forced to have sex and he even initiated some if it (if i remember correctly)

He didn't rape but he manipulated Sungho in HS. He's the reason sungho have become some monster. If you read the events in their past you can see he was super cute and helpful to others. I always on Dohyun's side and hated sungho for the rapist and kidnapper he is. But then when their past was exposed and I saw how Dohyun treated him then and how he destroyed sungho's joyful youth to the point where he became a crazy psycho, I don't feel that much for Dohyun. It's true that we can't blame the victim but it's also considerable that Sungho was himself is a victim in his childhood of manipulation which damaged his mental health as a child and thus he is stuck in his childhood trauma till now.

When in one side I can't support Sungho in his wrong actions and crime (but I feel his love for and obsession with Dohyun) on the other I want Dohyun to be free from this misery and want both of them to lead a normal life with or without each other.

If you reread they both are victims.
And both needs proper treatment and psychiatrists to help them overcome their mental trauma and disorder

Sungho wrote how much he actually loved to be touched by dohyun in those journals, why would he lie when he about to commit suicide right?

That's being said, i think the only reason why he was messed up bc of his reputation as honor student and good son to uphold. To involve in gay relationship wth dohyun would paint a bad image to him despite deep down in his heart he liked all those skinship he engaged wth dohyun as written in his journals.

I wont gonna lie that i wished so badly that these two beings who inevitably in love wth each other to reconnect some day.

Reposting someone he's post:
The thing is, after Sungho rejected Dohyun when he first tried to kiss him, Dohyun stayed friends with Sungho for many months afterwards. He was fine to hang out with Sungho without sex.

It was only a year or so later when they got split into different classes that they started to drift apart. Dohyun thought that was just a natural consequence of them living in different worlds, and was going to let it happen, but Sungho didn't want that to happen and so offered sex, thinking that that would make Dohyun stay. And Dohyun went along with it because he thought it would give Sungho a reason to stay. 

You can see in chapter 46 he actually tells Sungho to knock it off and not get so close and personal because he has feelings for Sungho and doesn't want Sungho to mess him around. But Sungho kisses Dohyun anyway.

Don't even start compering them

The thing is, after Sungho rejected Dohyun when he first tried to kiss him, Dohyun stayed friends with Sungho for many months afterwards. He was fine to hang out with Sungho without sex.

It was only a year or so later when they got split into different classes that they started to drift apart. Dohyun thought that was just a natural consequence of them living in different worlds, and was going to let it happen, but Sungho didn't want that to happen and so offered sex, thinking that that would make Dohyun stay. And Dohyun went along with it because he thought it would give Sungho a reason to stay. 

You can see in chapter 46 he actually tells Sungho to knock it off and not get so close and personal because he has feelings for Sungho and doesn't want Sungho to mess him around. But Sungho kisses Dohyun anyway.