I’m usually on the front lines with the wokejoshis but I’m really lost as to the controversy here. There are hundreds of actual portrayals of childhood to barley adulthood grooming on this website… the author could have gone about it different but they didn’t make some weird buildup background and show multiple rapid growing stages with sexual undertones throughout it all, nor do they really make ML act like a child. MC watching him for ONE night
Could be speaking too soon bc we’re only 12 chapters in and there’s clearly more backstory
The end to Siwons chase was actually so satisfying in comparison to other red flag MLs but the memory loss part made me want to rip my fucking hair out
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Idk if this will make sense, it’s like 20-30 chapters and the chapters are long but here’s the jist:
MC eventually starts ignoring ML until ML shows up at his house. MC starts begging to sleep with ML thinking it will get him to finally leave him alone (bc of the bet) but they both kind of back out and ML says that he’s won’t like MC anymore and he’s going to start bullying MC at school.
ML starts rumors that MC is gay, MC is bullied for a few chapters until ML caves bc he’s still in love with MC. They jerk eachother off in the bathroom and it triggers MC bc he realizes he’s also still inlove with ML. They’re kind of on better terms at this point but MC is an emotional mess and decides he wants to run away and starts making a plan to run away to Germany to live with him mom.
His plan gets exposed to ML and ML shows up at MCs house and they both starts having mental breakdowns threatening to kill themselves. ML decides that if his existence in MCs life is causing all this distress, then he’ll finally give up.
Months go by and everyone’s healing/normal. ML makes a complete turn around and starts trying to better himself. ML approaches MC and asks to be friends, MC asks for more time but in the end— they get back together bc they’re both still in love.
They go to college, everything is fine. ML is still crazy but nowhere near how he was.
Randomly at the very end of the novel, they get into a car accident and ML loses his memory— his blast memory being when MC got beat up by that guy/ when ML pervert obsession started three years ago.
MLs stepmom knows they’re dating and asks MC to pretend they’re just friends but eventually ML catches on and finds videos of them together. Since he lost his memory, he kind of reverts back to being an asshole.
ML also goes into some split personality shit and gets jealous of his past self and decides he doesn’t want to get his memory back.
This depresses MC and they argue a lot, ML tries to kind of run away which makes MC cave and decide to accept the new ML.
Eventually, ML gets his memory back against his will though. ML gets pissed about how he had memory loss bc he was an asshole, he also gets jealous of himself AGAIN.
Happy ending ^_^











After MC gets with that girl and breaks MLs heart briefly by saying he never loved him, was that a lie? Did he ever actually him or was he just using ML to get through the pain of his illness?
I’m having a hard time sympathizing with MC, unless he was just trying to date that girl because he didn’t want to hurt ML knowing he was going to die in the end.. it seemed like MC did love ML but idk…
That's the ending???!! I thought the worst thing that could happen is the mc dies
But he leaves the ml for a woman and is still gonna die??!! (°Д °;)