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(Warning, imma talk briefly about my childhood sad sessions)
So like as a kid there were times I would be very sad. To the point where I would create letters for each family member telling them how much I loved them and then apologizing for everything bad I might have done to them. I would hide it under my pillow and then I would cry myself to sleep imagining that I would do something very bad to myself. I would often think that everyone would be happier without me, and so I would quietly whisper to god “I’m sorry” multiple times until I fell asleep.”. This basically happening until the end of middle school are started at some point In elementary school. I know this because at some point I just became less talkative to people and was more afraid to interact with peers. I don’t remember why but I remember someone looked at me and asked “are you ok?” And I looked at him and said “yes” but the whole time I was saying no I’m my head many times. Although I never thought much about these times, I always wondered why I was so sad. Was it depression?