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why bother talk to the ppl around you when you can just live in your head

Everything goes downhill from here. In stories similar to this, the ml usually begs the mc to forgive their bullshit, but Sion.... is a crazy motherfucker. They will fight a lot. Spoilers ahead (also, please take note that I'm a bad story teller, and and I have a bad memory)

1. They fought. Sunwoo bashed Sion's head with a chair (it scarred) and beat his face. This is where we currently at.

2. They stayed together again because that is what Sion wants. But Mc hates Sion, he treats Sion coldly. Although at one point, Jaeyoung advised him to stop being stubborn and use his head. And there MC thought of dumping Sion someday.

3. Sunwoo and Youngjin meets secretly which became his breather. They played games, and even cried together. But then Sion found out about it and he got mad. He gives no fuck that Youngjin is just a friend, he wants Mc's attention to only him. Anyways they fight then MC said about his plans of dumping Sion, and returned what Sion said about him before 'Just thinking isn't a crime'. Because he did not dumped Sion yet like Sion didn't sleep with him for the bet. But that made Sion mad.
“Right. Just thinking isn’t a crime.”
“But I can’t help but hate you, whether you betray me or not, whether your thoughts turn into actions or not. But Yun Seonwoo, you aren’t like that. You’ve already…”
“Maybe it’s less unfair to do something worth hating if you’re going to be hated anyway.”

And then Sion grabbed MC's hair, hit his knee so MC kneeled, and told him to suck his dick :). Then mc said he'll do it in exchange for Sion disappearing from his life. Then Sion got mad for treating this lightly. And therefore, "Just suck it once and throw it away? Who do you think you are?""If I'm going to fulfill your wish, I have to do it right. Sucking it won't be enough.""If you're going to act like a rag, do it right."

Sunwoo said that he regrets defying Shinju. If he slept with Shinju then he wouldn't have to meet Sion. Then they said really really low blows. I was so gagged reading their convo.

Sunwoo: "But what can you do? From now on, you'll just keep being discarded all your life. Plenty are dazzled by your exterior, but once they know who you really are, they'll drop you like I did."
"Do you know why you're scared of being discarded? Because you've been discarded all your life. That's why you have no real friends, and even your parents despise you."
"Hasn't anyone loved you but me?"
"That's why you're clinging to me. You want to transfer your misery to me."
"I'm just saying what I see. You came to me whimpering after being beaten by your dad. You told me yourself that you were a bastard. Are you still getting hit? Poor bastard."

Sion: "You... what makes you different? You were discarded by your parents, too."
"One kills themselves, leaving behind their child, and the other sets up another family and just sends money once a month, aren't they your parents? Who are you to judge anyone?"
"Different how? From what I see, we're the same. Stop pretending."
"What good is growing up loved? Now you have no hill to lean on."
"Do you think you have a hill to lean on? A bastard child."

Anyways, this arc ends with Sion saying he will not like Sunwoo anymore.

4. The next day, Sion starts a rumor by talking loudly in class with Sunwoo about mc's hickeys and was it made by Youngjin (bastard, its his), that mc's a slut, and he begged Sion to fuck him. That rumor then spread and people started talking about how mc is a slut, faggot, gay. Then one time, Mc got into a verbal fight with some guys in a restroom. Sion then appeared, made the guys gtfo and for some reason he ended up jerking off MC......... Anyways, MC got into a fight again when some guy spit on his food tray. MC poured food on the guy and bashed the tray in his head and punched his friends. After that chaos in the cafeteria, no one really bothered mc again. MC also learned that Sion crushed those guys. But lately, MC feels really tired.

'Still, waves of deep lethargy would wash over me now and then. I became sluggish both at school and at home. Whenever I tried to eat, I’d keep thinking about that white saliva. The spit that had landed on my tray. The liquid that had dripped from Park Sion’s fingers. It made my stomach turn. Thankfully, even if I didn’t eat, I didn’t get hungry. Instead, I just kept getting sleepier.'

MC then sleeps a lot, eat less and feel really lethargic. But he also don't like the attention he's getting and even vomits. Sion then made him go to therapy. So mc has to take anti depressant meds.

TW Warning !!!!!!: Su!c!de
5. They are together again. (Pls dont ask me why is Sion clinging on Mc again, idk, he's so confusing). After taking the meds, MC became a bit better. He started cleaning his room, and went out to buy some books... GED and a german book... because he's planning to drop out and go to his mom in Germany. But then, fuck it, Sion found out about his plan, tore his passport and they fought again. Mc said he doesn't want Sion's love, but his understanding. But Sion don't want to understand Sunwoo because if he does, he has to let MC go. But he can't live without MC, he'll die. So MC said die. "What u cant do it? Weakling." So Sion slashed himself(palm), MC took the cutter away.

Fast forward because i forgot what happened in between. But MC called his mom, but then he learned that his Mom is pregnant. And mc feels he won't belong there even if he goes with his mom. The next day, everything feels like shit, he hit his gums, his button fell off, and on his way to school, he fell down the stairs. He limped and cried on the way back to his house. After some time, Sion went to his house because he's not in school. Mc cried and cried and cried. T-T. "I can't go to Mom." "Mom seems happy without me." "There's nowhere... to go back too.."

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There is something that should never be broken or shattered for me, or perhaps for all of us. But it is so fragile that it often cracks. Sometimes, those cracks become growth rings that testify to our development, but not all pain can be given such grand meaning. Some wounds shatter what should never be broken and collapse what should never be destroyed.

I cried like a child for a long time. I cried and cried until my voice was hoarse. Then, I collapsed, exhausted. Si-on Park gently pulled me away as my sobs subsided. I saw his lips were tightly set. I also saw his pale complexion and confused eyes.

...

"It's hard."
"I'm going to stop everything now."
"I'm going to go to Dad."

....

"You know that if you commit suicide, you'll go to hell, right? I'll kill you. I'll kill you and then I'll follow you."

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Seonwoo nods slighty and Sion grabbed his neck but his hand keep slipping. He would give strength and then lose it. Then Sion cried and hugged MC.

"Fuck I don't want too. Fuck. I can't do it." Sion referring to letting MC go.

"I don't want to...." "Please Seonwoo, please. This sucks.""If I let you go....""Will you live?"

And end of that fifth arc. Sion finally let MC go.

6. Last, ending arc. Im going to shorten it because this comment is becoming too longgg.


Basically, time and space healed them. They don't talk to each other anymore. They finally became seniors, he's in a different class with Sion. The rumors also died down since everyone is a senior and they're all busy with their own lives. MC finally becomes better. He hangs out with Youngjin and his friends. Sometimes when he's out of the building, he can see Sion staring at him and he stares back. But they still don't talk. One time, Sion asked Mc if they could talk. Its not a fight this time, but heart to heart talk. They said sorry and thank you. Sion said that MC looks better, he's scared that he'll forget him. MC said he won't. Sion asked if they are really over. He wants to wait for MC. "It's ok if it takes a long time, just tell me its not over." Mc said he cant promise, but if Sion is strong enough to not be hurt even if he cant keep his promise, they can talk again. MC also made Sion promise that he should eat and live well until they meet again.

Summer break, Seonwoo enrolled to summer classes in hopes that he'll be able to Sion. There was 2 times that Sion sleepwalks into MC's house (as a side effect of sleeping pills). One time, Mc saw Sion sleeping in a classroom, he was reading 'Essay of understanding'. Fast forward because I forgot again. Mc's appendix burst, he called Sion (didnt answer, he was showering), 911, and got taken to the hospital. Fast forward again Im sorry. They took the college exams, MC went to his house, they talked again. They get back together again. Ik shit explanation for the ending T-T, but I'm really bad at explaining their feelings. So much stuff happened and realization in this chapter tho.

What chapter are we here in the novel?

Can someone recommend me a story with this kind of plot. Were the ml is so obsessed that mc wanted to runaway

Already read/ currently reading Monday Saviour , Eighteen's Bed, The edge of ambiguity, Sunshine Shower

It's too late baby. You're acting like " I'm in love with a criminal" uwahh Just say it out loudddd. Damn

The live version of overthinking

Come back here after i read the raw xjsnjznz cause i can't take it!! AND I'M SCREAMING SO HARD WHEN I READ THE RAW LIKE HZJXBJDNSJS AAAAA WAR IS OVER GUYS!!!!! ε=ε=(ノ≧∇≦)ノ HYUNWOON (cirrus) CONFESS AND SAID HE LIKE HANEUL (skylar) AND HANEUL SAID, "THEN, DO YOU WANT TO GOING OUT WITH ME/DATE ME?" JDJZJSNKS AAAAAAA (if my brain doesn't mix up the translation and bubble of the character then it's probably what happened in the new chapter)

And i got the vibe that hyunwoon is like yuri from the manhwa "the shape of sympathy" like they're so complex and so baby girl??!! Like— (づ￣ ³￣)づ

dat was freaking hot heheh ,men to men ^_^

I'm not going to join this debate about the morals of the content but as an FYI to anyone who enjoyed this, there's a drama CD audio for it that is, uh, detailed and probably hideously embarrassing for the vast majority of people. But it does exist! Lmao

Chronological Timeline of Events:

Many (Unknown) Years Ago (Not Shown) ~

• GEUMSUM (blue haired Goblin daddy) cut off HWAN’s head (black eyed ghostly monster giant)

• Afterwards, to recover, HWAN went into hiding and GEUMSUN slept for a long time

• During this time YAMA (red haired king of hell) recruits 704 (sleep deprived dark hair hottie with the eyebrow scar) as a reaper

20 Years Ago (Flashback starts mid chapter 50) ~

• GEUMSUM wakes up to news from YAMA that the death records are messed up due to a lot of “unknown deaths” because HWAN is eating up a lot of humans to recover quickly and get revenge on GEUMSUN

• The more spiritual sight a person has the better meal for HWAN so YAMA and GEUMSUN figure out SUH SAN (red-eyed, white haired human puppy with lots of spiritual sight) would make the perfect bait

• Sure enough, HWAN preys on SAN and even kills SAN’S aunt to weaken his support system to make him depressed and easier to possess and consume

• GEUMSUN can’t bring himself to kill SAN while HWAN is possessing SAN’s body and HWAN gets away

• GEUMSUN convinces SAN to help him bait out HWAN again by entering the underworld with his body and soul entact thus erasing his existence in the mortal world and all memories of him will be forgotten by HWAN

• YAMA makes 704 take responsibility for the “mistake” as GEUMSUN is not a registered Goblin and YAMA’s authority will be compromised as King if either of them make mistakes

• GEUMSUN gives SAN his energy and disguises him as a Goblin in the mortal world to hide/protect him from HWAN

• To rid 704 of his guilt, and thus developing more human emotions, YAMA asks GEUMSUN to have sex with 704 to give GEUMSUN more Yang energy he can transfer to SAN (non-sexually)

Couple Years Before Present Timeline ~

• HWAN preys on EUNJAE (grey haired emo cutie with strong spiritual sight) and kills his parents and dog to weaken him as he did with SAN’s aunt to more easily possess and consume EUNJAE

• EUNJAE becomes depressed AF ☹

Present Timeline (Starts at Chapter 1) ~

• GEUMSUN tells SAN to look out for a ghostly monster fitting HWAN’s description to test if HWAN still remembers SAN

• HWAN recognizes GEUMSUN’s sent on SAN and that scares him away from EUNJAE

• An unnamed GHOSTLY CREATURE with a vendetta against HWAN (seen under EUNJAE’s desk) possesses EUNJAE while HWAN is away to kill EUNJAE and destroy HWAN’s prey

• SAN goes after EUNJAE thinking he’s possessed by HWAN (without any direct orders or knowledge of who HWAN really is or anything about ghostly monsters in general bc he’s basically a golden retriever who doesn’t care to retain any useful information) and accidentally saves EUNJAE (who’s marked dead in the death records) and that’s where our story begins as 704 shows up to collect EUNJAE’s soul and begin to unravel the lies and secrets behind YAMA and GEUMSUN’s plans bc he knows SAN is too dumb to do anything on his own

• SAN has to babysit EUNJAE and protect him from HWAN while 704 tries to figure shit out

• SAN and EUNJAE develop a hesitantly caring and affectionate relationship over this time

• 704 and GEUMSUM’s “purely physically” relationship begin to deteriorate

• HWAN kills the Ghostly Creature who tried to kill EUNJAE. GEUMSUN sorta confirms by interrogating a ghost witness of the incident that HWAN has forgotten about SAN.

• YAMA is annoyed 704 won’t eat with him, pissed at GEUMSUN for drinking 704’s blood, and sick of all the other Underworld Kings nagging him about HWAN and GEUMSUN not doing anything so he lures SAN away and sends a Northern reaper and Northern Goblin after EUNJAE

• HWAN shows up as soon as SAN leaves and taps into EUNJAE’s memories learning bits about SAN and GEUMSAN’s plans. This sends EUNJAE into a bad nightmare memory trip.

• CHUGIN (blue haired Northern knock-off GEUMSUN) and SAN show up and both injure HWAN who runs away

• 704 brings SAN and an unconscious EUNJAE to GEUMSUN’s place and GEUMSUN heals EUNJAE physically with all his Yang energy

• SAN heals EUNJAE emotionally with his dick

• GEUMSUN confronts YAMA about putting everyone in danger, learns HWAN is hurt but still after him, and the most dangerous place 704 could be is next to GEUMSUN.

• Needing Yang energy and knowing he has to let 704 go, GEUMSUN forces himself on 704 and says some sadistic degrading things about 704 while doing so

• To keep 704 safe, GEUMSUN and YAMA decide 704 needs to stay with YAMA but he’d never go willingly so CHUGIN (who I guess is sticking around) kidnaps him

• GEUMSUN tells SAN the truth about his past and that he’s not actually a Goblin and none of it is 704’s fault

Ch 57-58 [SPOILERS] ~

• GEUMSUN spends a couple episodes in his burrito blanket missing 704 and remembers flashbacks of their first time

UNKNOWNS

• Still unclear what YAMA and GEUMSUN’s plans are originally with SAN as re-hidden bait and how much HWAN knows now having seen EUNJAE’s memories

• Is there more history between 704 and GEUMSUN? How does YAMA know 704 is GEUMSUN’s type? What’s the history between HWAN and GEUMSUN? Why did YAMA say he could search the earth and no one knows HWAN as well as GEUMSUN does?

• HAS 704 EATEN? IS HE GETTING ENOUGH SLEEP?

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Sorry if it feels like I’m shouting character names at you - it’s easier for me to remember spelling and names in all caps.

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Saw a lot of comments about confusion so I hope this helps.

As for complaints about there being too much talking, I just have to say - please keep in mind this story is more supernatural mystery than supernatural action.

It’s seemingly a psychological game of chess between Yama and Hwan so far and the 4 main characters are merely pawns trying to figure out what’s happening.

58 chapters released of the raws and some of those early mysteries are *finally* being answered so there’s not really a way to summarize and explain the first few chapters without spoilers.

The author has a knack for story structure and building plot suspense. It’s intentionally confusing to start but the reveal of all the unknowns is overall really incredible world building and clever storytelling. There’s great character development and a lot of investment in building the relationships and dynamics beyond just gratuitous sex scenes.

Even though it’s a fantasy, every character feels very 3 dimensional and relatable. Hwan included, somehow. There’s like a whole fan club thirsty for the ghostly monster. (Y’all need some holy water tho, lmao)

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feel free to add anything important i’m missing below.

let’s get through this confusion together.

I get why people are uncomfortable about Geumsun and 704's toxic relationship but when you consider all the clues about their hidden history it really puts Geumsun's behavior in a different perspective. Yama is straight up using 704 to control Geumsun and it's making me hella nervous. Remember this exchange from chapter 51?:

YAMA: I could search the world and I wouldn't find anyone who knows Hwan as much as you do. Why else do you think I went through such lengths to keep you alive?
GEUMSUN: Who said I wanted that?
YAMA: Well, child, you need to stay alive to catch Hwan. At all cost. Whatever it takes, you must get him. You have a very good reason to, don't you?
704: *enters*

Geumsun remembers this exchange precisely when he's spying outside San's house. He implied he didn't want to be kept alive but still follows Yama's order to kill Hwan by killing San. It's clear 704 is what motivates him - going so far as attempting to do something he ultimately is unable to do - and Yama knows it.

I have a feeling Hwan is directly involved with Geumsun losing 704 the first time. While they face off in chapter 53 Geumsun tells San/Hwan that he's the 2nd person he's met with strong spiritual powers. The first died a long time ago.

Then this exchange:

SAN/HWAN: ...I'm not really interested in that.
GEUMSUN: Why not? You should be. Because they also happened to tell me, "...when the host dies so does the monster."

If 704 is the human with strong spiritual powers who could act as host and the one to realize this was the only way to kill Hwan, he might have tried to sacrifice himself to try to do so. Possible reason why Geumsun would want to cut Hwan's head off.

More evidence when Hwan taunts Geumsun the next chapter:

HWAN: Those who hold weapons get to choose who is sacrificed. Those without weapons become the victims. You haven't changed a bit, I see...despite losing everything because of that arrogance.

Everything = 704 ???

In chapter 4, right before they Bang for Yang Geumsun says to 704, "Who do you think is holding the handle of the knife right now? The people who are "right" don't matter. It's the people who hold the knife that matter."

Weird foreplay, bro. But also too eerily similar to what Hwan said.

If Geumsun thinks of himself as the one holding the weapon, he is choosing to sacrifice a great amount to protect 704. His very will to live has been wiped of all emotions, memories, and now resents him. Like, damn, that sucks??? Yet, he continues to keep 704 in the dark to protect him. We've seen him get angry at both Yama and San in the present timeline for involving 704. He tells Yama to "Keep him safe. Until I go get him again." like those are his end goals. Fuckkkk I wanna cry.

What worries me is that 704 is super intuitive and has figured some stuff out on own already. He already suspected from the beginning that San was not his mistake. I'm guessing he's picked up on how strangely Geumsun treated him too. Yama probably knows 704 isn't that easy to fool. If Yama is using everyone to kill Hwan at all costs and getting increasingly impatient, who's the better pawn? Geumsun - who Hwan refers to as an immortal sacred being and can't live with the memory of killing a human for all of eternity? Or 704 - who is a 'sinner' by definition of being a reaper and not bound by the same ethical and (I'm assuming) mortal restrictions?

Yama has been controlling Geumsun by manipulating 704 from the very start. He knows 704 is someone who wants to bare the burden of responsibility. Now that 704 is in his custody and asking questions, he could easily tell 704 everything. Geumsun would be forced to do everything to keep 704 out of it and 704 would probably do everything to get involved. That's a win/win for Yama.

On top of everything, the amount of times it's been mentioned that reapers and ghostly creatures are "natural enemies" is also worrisome.

In this essay, I will

You mean, you gave us all this sweetshit and still not dare call it shounen ai? HQHWHAHWHAAH

Mhm Endeavor how does it feel knowing the fact that you are the reason your son became a villain bc of your own greed and abuse to your family physically, mentally, and emotionally

Me reading smut/hardcore yaoi: (〜￣△￣)〜
Me reading He Tian kissing Mo's face: (๑•ㅂ•)و✧ლ(´ڡ`ლ)(づ￣ ³￣)づ ε=ε=(ノ≧∇≦)ノ

oh I forgot they are still fucking kids lmao how cute(づ￣ ³￣)づ

so here is a fan art of TianShan: https://i.pinimg.com/originals/5b/99/81/5b9981faef6fd9db7b32aadd69308455.png

Ive already read all of the chapters in korean from this site called toonkor and well it ends in chapter 31 so prepare yourself ppl cuz the end of this fluff heaven is near. I cried when i read the last chapter cuz i knew there would be no next button anymore .....

Just now I got attracted in Jian Yi's profile photo and... THOSE HEADBENT!!! ヾ(☆▽☆)
Btw, I already missed Momo and Tian lol I couldn't move on from Momo's thump as he saw Tian! I know it's because he was surprised, but still... ⁄(⁄ ⁄·⁄ω⁄·⁄ ⁄)⁄