I give up
Im so confused, I have everything planned out already but something is missing. I don’t know, my life been joyful lately yet I couldn’t stop attempting. I would hang myself and let go after a few moments, I still find myself wanting to live. Even so I kept doing it anyway, does it even count as self harm or am I just doing it out of curiosity
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You need professional help. Good Luck sis/bro
I’m very sleepy right now so I don’t know what to say, but at the very least, the world can’t afford to lose a slow damage fan rn…
I really think that there’s still hope for you. Just know it might come after something really terrifying, shocking, and painful. that’s what happened to me, at least. Idk, i guess it could end up being your hero or villain origin story depending how you play your cards.
This cheer me up lowk thanks
I’m glad!!! Except for THE one conversation that actually worked and lowered my suicidal-ness by like 70%, (one that I wish i could replicate for other people but i genuinely have never been able to come close, i can’t even remember half of it) the reasons that help me the most are the stupidest ones. “I can’t kill myself cause only my cat is allowed to maim me,” “I can’t kms cause that would be kinda lame and maybe gay,” “I cant kms cause aaaaggaABAGSBA!!…” even if it didn’t make sense, it was confusing enough to get my brain to shut up for a min.
I still have the impulse and I struggle with thoughts of wanting to die, but it doesn’t even get as far as getting clear ideas on how to do it anymore, which is far more bearable. I still have good and bad cycles ofc, I still ain’t mentally healthy i haven’t figured out that yet
Anyways I’m done yapping about tips that may or may not actually help anyone besides me, if you wanna vent to an inconsequential stranger then I’d be willing to listen! I’m kinda bad sometimes at just listening and not jumping to giving unwanted advice, but I can try at least!!!
Thanks !! That’s pretty reassuring, I would be grateful to have someone to listen to me even for a moment. Hope everything went well for you (˶ˆᗜˆ˵)
Yes it counts as self harm. Someone in a healthy state of mind would not act on this curiosity. Definitely not multiple times. So yes this counts as self harm. Please seek help and support from those around you. There are so many more joyful moments left, it's too early to let go
I think you should be getting some professional help you're actively harming yourself and your a danger to yourself, make sure to find someone that is good for you specifically i know getting a response that's basically just "go to therapy" looks annoying but it truly is the only way, you need medications