gut wrenching

i wish you hadn't assumed you knew what i wanted

i wish i hadn't been born in this family

i wish my family's love for me was more powerful than a lie

i wish my sister and i could have survived

i wish i'd realized what i want for you isn't what you wanted sooner

i wish my family didn't decide my fate

i wish i didn't have to be perfect to deserve someone else's love

i wish i didn't have to be interesting to be loved unconditionally

i wish i didn't have to be abused and murdered to realize how bad you are for me