gut wrenching

i wish i didn't have to squash my pride to stay alive

i wish i didn't have to walk on glass in a home i was invited into

i wish my previous life was a lie so i wouldn't know how much you hated me

i wish i chose you from the start

i wish my mother's love didn't condemn me

i wish i didn't have to mature so early to survive

i wish i wasn't someone else's shadow

i wish my father loved me enough to protect me

i wish my father's misunderstandings didn't cause him to hate me

i wish my father didn't use me as a pawn