You ever hate someone so much that you love them?

It has happened to me... Twice... I'm actually gonna send this to the person I'm still in love with... It reminds me of us. Just... I've made so many mistakes, and I'm not as free... SOOOOOO, yeah, It has happened to me... (๑•ㅂ•)و✧

I have someone like that.. and i'm actually amazed with myself... Cuz that person has done the most fucked up things and I still love them, but I will never again be in a relationship with them, that's one decision that I've made and will keep it intact .....( so I do have a person like that ) and when I saw this comment I can understand you .. and how it feels. ( It's the most saddest thing to live with).

Oh and after I changed my school, he still asked me to go out with him.. but I denied even though I liked them.. cuz I know how toxic it can get and it really does effect me in alot of ways.

OH, I get you... My mistakes where hard on her, she had abandonment trauma... I promised her I wouldn't hurt her, but since I live in a very homophobic country, and my parents are way too obsessed with what people think about them, and our family name, I had to lie, and literally tell her to stop touching me so carelessly outside, like, she once gave me A KISS ON THE NECK MID-CLASS, IN FRONT OF EVERYONE... Her family is also really known in my country, so... People started saying really bad things about her. The thing is, I'm kind of really stupid with human interaction, and I thought, "Hey, I'm gonna go and start acting as if I was crushing on this guy friend of ours, he low-key despises me, so he will never like me back", so... Yeah, I think she resent me to this day, but she still loves me, she even made me promise her if she was ever ready to... You know, to love her publicaly to contact her... Which is cute, but at the same time frightening, because I'm sure she will not feel free to love anyone else, and therefore her happiness is not guaranteed, and that hurts me...

Oh that's really, sad.. but I told you that I can understand but I was wrong cuz it must've been really difficult and going through all that needs a lot.of courage especially.. when you're facing a society which is very.. homophobic.