omg heres the term i was looking for - taehwan seems disappointed in yeonwoo for letting him treat him badly. like they mentioned it before that taehwan gets really cold and angry when someone he trusts disappoints him and this feels like the same thing uk? he also seems to be having a hard time separating "friend yeonwoo" from "sex yeonwoo," like he still sees his old friend in yeonwoo right now and he's treating him badly so he like, stops? and decides to just be friends again? idk lol
anyway did i write a whole literary analysis for this chapter... yes, yes i did
and i thank you for it!! (▰˘◡˘▰)
taehwan seems simultaneously pissed off and turned on by yeonwoo in this chapter. its interesting tho bc it seem like hes pissed that yeonwoo doesnt seem to have self respect and likes being treated badly by taehwan than anything else. him being like "just say you don't like it" feels like he's trying to get him to have more respect for himself and tell him that he wants to be treated better. its like he still cares about yeonwoo enough to want him to respect himself, tho it doesn't quite translate bc bedroom kinks =/= how someone actually thinks of themself. then at the same time he likes fucking yeonwoo and seeing his crying face,, he really has a thing for yeonwoo's face,,,,
also taehwan being like "how many people has he had sex with like this" is simultaneously possessive and disgusted, and him thinking yeonwoo is filthy probably has more to do with his perceived lack of self respect + how he kissed taehwan w/o consent when they were in high school than him being gay lol