i just think it’s weird that she had to die several times to finally wake the fuck up an...

I fr would've whooped all their asses after dying once

we still don’t know what happened the other lives first of all, and it’s really hard to get out of a relationship as abusive as this. her mind was already fragile in her first life and she never took advantage of powers until now, and even then she’s not taking revenge (she already did that) she just wants to die permanently. I think it’s very natural as to how her mindset progressed, now taking advantage of everything that happened so far to finally gets what she wants—death. I think that in her later lives she still tried to cling onto that hope that people could change until now, which is very fitting for what’s happening to her now, giving up all hope on her family and her happiness essentially.

I mean, dying twice is still okay, she can still have her trauma. But bro ToT like how many lives has it been... 9? 7 I don't remember but we are talking about lifetimes here, that is A LONG time.

she only gets reincarnated to the point where her sister was attacked, and we can assume that each reincarnation lasted about a year based on her physical appearance in each life. that’s not a lot of time to get over trauma

This is her 7th life. Also, people in abusive relationships don’t usually see it themselves, until they escape it or someone tells them so. You can’t view it with the mindset of an average person. She’s been through this for years, and each life, she’s never escaped from the bad people around her. It only makes sense that the only way for her to escape, despite no good people being around her, was when she runs out of options on who to rely on.

But still 7 years is quite a lot. As you also know how things will roll out. Assume that each life takes a year or more, as she relives a new life, there must be a breakthrough into leaving a little longer as now she could avoid her pass mistakes. That still counts as a lot of years.

Living* not leaving

However, that’s what’s she’s always had to go through. When you were born in a place where no one loves you and you’re always treated badly or ignored, you begin to think that’s just how life is. However, she was never treated nicely in any of her lives, and she just wanted to escape a sad fate. However, she still clung to the people that caused it because of all those years. It was normalized for her, so she doesn’t realize that the people around her were truly scum. Anyway, it was only when she gave up on it(pursuing a way to really kill herself instead) that she gave up. It wasn’t out of revenge. She just wants to die peacefully.

Oui that does makes sense