okok from my understanding— when the two main characters were friends as children the older brother was still an obsessive psycho, and he put the death of the brown haired kids’ dad on the brown haired kid,, and basically manipulated him,
i literally don’t remember why black haired hotty hated brown hair?
but my guess is since that happened with the older brother brown hair filled his life with meaningless sex, that’s where the psycho friend came in.
and since he was filling his life with sex he felt ‘fine’ but when he didn’t have anyone to fill that and he had someone that cared about him, he’s afraid that he’s going to ruin black haired guy from what the brother said in the past??
and that’s why he wants to die— i think idk tho
bruh what happened to this story, it’s like they didn’t know what to do so they came up with a random suicide plot twist and tried to make it make sense but it literally doesn’t