Sometimes, I wish that, instead of ignoring my feelings, and making a joke of them, my mom would've just completely rejected me all together. I wish that, in middle school, I would've spoken up for myself, because in the end, we were all just kids being so confused about our lives. I wish that I had a more stable support system, and I didn't feel the need to date people I didn't even like, just to get people to leave me the hell alone, and end up hurting genuinely amazing people in the process. I'm so envious, and I can relate so much it brings me to tears. I hurt because I don't even have the courage to look my mother in the eye anymore. I'm so tired of feeling like I'm a disappoinment and hurting myself when I haven't done anything wrong. I can accept myself, just like he did and he found someone. Maybe I will too. But for now, all I have is my friends and myself. As envious as I may be, I'm so happy for them. It's such a beautiful story, and I hope mine will be just as amazing
Sometimes, I wish that, instead of ignoring my feelings, and making a joke of them, my mom would've just completely rejected me all together. I wish that, in middle school, I would've spoken up for myself, because in the end, we were all just kids being so confused about our lives. I wish that I had a more stable support system, and I didn't feel the need to date people I didn't even like, just to get people to leave me the hell alone, and end up hurting genuinely amazing people in the process. I'm so envious, and I can relate so much it brings me to tears. I hurt because I don't even have the courage to look my mother in the eye anymore. I'm so tired of feeling like I'm a disappoinment and hurting myself when I haven't done anything wrong. I can accept myself, just like he did and he found someone. Maybe I will too. But for now, all I have is my friends and myself. As envious as I may be, I'm so happy for them. It's such a beautiful story, and I hope mine will be just as amazing