i'm not a completely hard-working person but i'm not that lazy too. it's just that i don't know what to do to myself anymore, and that actually terrifies me. like i don't wanna live anymore but don't wanna die the same time too.
Dang i this is the most well explained of my depression back then, i was not sad but felt empty and hollowness like I don't feel anything anymore. Everytime i wake up i feel tired and just engraving my mind that i should act likea person today.
I have friends who care for me but i still feel lonely and alone, cuz even if i tell them what i feel and my situation is they will tell me that they'll be there when i need them, but that doesn't seem to help me cuz i still feel tired and nothing changes. I'm so thankful that they really care for me when im at my hellish days. But you see the one thing that helpedme that time is just myself not my friends not my family, but me srsly i tried to kill myself before buy overdosing myself like drinking 20 strong pills and sleep forever
I have friends who care for me but i still feel lonely and alone, cuz even if i tell them what i feel and my situation is they will tell me that they'll be there when i need them, but that doesn't seem to help me cuz i still feel tired and nothing changes.
That "don't wanna live but don't wanna die" hit me like a truck (if only i was isekai'd- ...anyway)
That's what I've been feeling the most these days. I've always been saying that I don't feel like living anymore. But these days, while thinking about it really deeply, I still couldn't help but want to live at the same time... Well, not that I want to live though. I just don't know what happens when I die so I'm cautious. I just want to be endless nothingness ... or maybe not even? It's an endless dilemma.
u know that feeling when suddenly one day everything seemed worthless and it felt like there's nothing u can do anymore then it became a daily occurrence in ur life. dang that hurts and I understand that. it's not just feeling under the weather, it's just being completely tired from everything and especially to yourself. coz that's what i'm feeling rn, honestly.