Shhh you didn't see this

I feel like i need to put this somewhere to get this out and I dont want anyone I know to see this, if anyone sees this no you didn't. Anyways I'm going to die alone and no-one will ever love me and I'll never be able to form any meaningful relationship with anybody. Anytime I think someone actually likes me and wants to be my friend or something they don't and they'll leave me in the end. Nobody will ever stay around and I'm part of the problem because I push people away at the slightest sign of discomfort or any minor sign that they night not like me. But I'm not going to do anything to make it better so I guess I sort have the right to complain. Uhhhh yeah you didn't see this, bye. But if you actually read all if this thanks for listening to me vent about how I think I'm unlovable, thanks you're a sweetheart.