This is an unbelievable story. O_O
I totally agree with you, for me it's been more than 5 years, and I have 4 kids, first I tried to fill the void with shoujo but it's too slow paced and cute and pink ヾ(☆▽☆) for me, but yaoi it's completely different, even when it's cute it's better, feelings are stronger and sex is hotter! yaoi
Until now, i don't have enough love for my partner, to give him a blow job. I tried, but can't. I always think that it feels disgusying, and i hate very much when his pubes stucked on my teeth or swalowed accidentally. Yuck.. and this is our 4th year together. Man, i donct know what is wrong anymore
Hey anon above me, why not tell him to shave his pubes? Experiences like that should be mutually shared in by both partners, so be honest and open with him, and I'm sure things will be more positive the next time <(^.^)>
I had a bf who was the same as shuna when I did porny shit. First time I gave him head then let him come on my face he hugged me and said "oh my god Zoey, I love you so much!" And he used to like to see me with a mouthful of jizz. Although he was super into me swallowing it. At first I was like no fucking way. Wouldn't even let him come in my mouth. First time he did I chocked and spit it on him which he thought was cute. Since I'd warned him not to come in my mouth and he'd held my head down when I tried to pull away I wasn't feeling cute, I was feeling pissed. I think I made him buy me a pitcher of the expensive beer instead of happy hour shit. God he was a cheap bastard. Also when I read "stinks like rubber", I'm like-thank you! It is an act of love to suck a guys dick after he's had a rubber on. I think it's a combo of the latex and the spermicide but it tastes like pure shit. It's funny I used to think giving head was disgusting personally. There idea of putting a penis in my mouth, vomit. But eventually I got into it. The way you hold so much power over your lover is intoxicating. Eventually I got into having him do shit like this. The way Hayashita was into it was so realistic to me. Making my lovey go crazy became erotic to me so things I one found revolting, like putting his balls in my mouth became sexy. It's funny how we change. It only works for me once I get to a certain comfort level. Although now I'm all dried up. Getting that comfort level means falling in love and I'm kinda done with that. I haven't had sex in a couple of years now and I feel like I'm done with all of it. I have terrible taste in guys and sex is kind of ridiculous. I've got a kid and I'm to tired for falling in love and sex. Yaoi fills the void. Thank God for Yaoi