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True. Its hard. When you ever being abandoned, you are so scared, you will choose to be negative to shield yourself. Like how i do it till know. I share love but i am scared being loved. If you know what i meant. Its not that i dont want but i cant trust.
People did not understand that and were saying "she's already an adult originally, she should know better etc" like Im an adult myself but the childhood trauma I feel when I was still a child is still there. Even if I now understand better, I cant help but feel that trauma
In another pov, its hard to accept unconditional love when ur brain is wired that way since ur little… like idk how to explain it but i guess u feel undeserving of it when u have nothing to offer to the relationship (its the childhood trauma guys don’t blame her she just doesn’t know how to accept love)