Plot wise this makes sense.
where can i find the next 10 chapters!?
Thank you for this.Now I can stop this finally.
i also feel bad for jaehyuk a little. yeah he overreacts and he’s a brute, but he is trying to say he cares in his own way, it’s just that the two of them communicate so differently. garam is really brutal with his words, but i think that’s the only way jaehyuk will actually learn. my prediction is that jaehyuk is gonna see garam with another dude again and realize that what he wants from garam won’t happen with such a shallow relationship. perhaps his cousin will have some role. then Jaehyuk will be like, “instead of going around with random guys who can’t satisfy you, date me. let’s date properly and i’ll be sure to fulfill your needs. you’re a guy but if it’s you i don’t mind”
This sounds exhausting, I'm tired and we haven't even gotten to those chapters yet.
yeah it’s dragging on a bit
I was getting impatient and wanted to know what happens so I read the raws. Jaehyuk is still in major denial and the back and forth shit continues.
He basically gets jealous when his female friend says Garam is cute. Back in their room, they get into another argument about it and Garam is basically like, why do you even care we're just sex partners etc. Jaehyuk is annoyed that Garam sees him as nothing but a "sex toy" or a dildo lol so he SAs him in his sleep
Garam wakes up half way through with his clothes off and his arms tied up. Jaehyuk is rubbing his dick with the massager... Garam keeps asking him to stop, and then they end up having sex. Jaehyuk sees his crying face and goes for a kiss.. Garam keeps resisting, asking why he's doing things that's unlike him, but Jaehyuk ends up forcing his mouth open and kisses him. Afterwards he's grabbing Garam to take him to the bath and clean him up.. Garam keeps asking him why do you even care? "do you like me"? Jaehyuk gets triggered and throws him on the floor (Garam gets bruised). Jaehyuk starts yelling at him and strongly denies having feelings for him. Garam then says, "it's a relief that you don't like me" and goes into the shower.
The next day he's all upset so his friends asks if he's having love problems.. he ends up explaining things to them (without telling them who it is) and one of his friends says, "what if one of them falls in love?" and his immediate thought is that Garam must be in love with him lmao the possibility of him being the one catching feelings doesn't even cross his mind.
Garam is sure at this point that Jaehyuk likes him. So he tells Jaehyuk he wants to stop being sex friends. Jaehyuk starts raging and goes, why? why so suddenly? are you not satisfied? etc etc. then storms out of the room yelling at him saying, "don't come back again begging me to fuck you, you faggot"!
After ending things with Jaehyuk, he gets jealous of seeing him with girls and has a lot of back and forth internal monologue going on lol Jaehyuk tries to have sex with a few girls but can't get it up lol then tells Garam that he should take responsibility for making him gay and fix him. "I became like this because of you". Garam then thinks to himself that he has such regrets but doesn't even realize his own feelings. "he can't even imagine that a man could like another man"... this part made me really sad ngl. Jaehyuk then starts chasing him around everywhere thinking, "I'm gonna make him beg me to fuck him again". Garam gets tired of him following him around, so he says, "okay do you want to fuck one more so badly? fine. Let's' do it one more time, but after that I want you to stop chasing after me".
Garam says he wants to hurry up and get it over with which annoys Jaehyuk even more. They have rough sex. Right after Jaehyuk comes, Garam gets up to leave. Jaehyuk pulls him back to bed to have sex again saying I'm not gonna let you quit like this. He sees a bruise on his back and asks why he didn't tell him. Garam says it's not a big deal and half of it is his fault anyways for throwing him on the floor, and goes into the shower. Jaehyuk has a whole mental breakdown and goes looking for the ointment he'd bought him, only to find it unopened in the trashcan.. and basically realizes that Garam really wants to end things, and I think finally starts to realize that maybe he has feelings for him...
side note, Garam has past trauma that's why he doesn't want to have anything serious with anyone, despite the fact that he's also developing feelings for Jaehyuk. The guy he was with in high school accused him of assaulting him when people found out, and said it was Garam that came onto him etc. So he swore he'd never like anyone ever again.
I'm lowkey starting to pity Jaehyuk just a tiny bit lol but based on his past behavior I'm also enjoying it hahahah