Do you know if this story has a novel?
No, maybe you can try to check by typing the title.
I don't think when Jing Mo said "I want to die" he necessarily means it literally. Like, I think it just the things he underwent at the moment that were so horrible that it felt like he was going to die. Well he did say many times that he was going to be saved by his brother and also asked said brother to save him, which means he didn't want to die.
When his brother killed him instead of saving him, ofc he felt betrayed. Abandoned. He put a lot of trust to his brother yet he ended up killed by said brother.
Regarding how long he has died since, I don't think it is precisely stated in the story so I won't say it's only been a few days (feel free to prove me wrong tho)
And yes! I agree with the rest of ur opinions especially that their relationship is confusing. They are often showed in a single panel together with such intimate closeness that is pretty ambiguous but aren't they half brothers? I mean they shared a father together according to the introduction. Well I won't really protest about that part since I still read this even after reading that. And they have 12 years age gap??? Well that kinda bother me but I like big age gap (within 10 years actually but let's not talk about that)
Yet what's bothering me the most is the fact that they (and the people around them) compared their relationship to that of a parent with his child?? HELP like how do you want us to take that??? And this is tagged as shounen ai and romance
Honestly when they started comparing their relationship to a parent and child I started having second thoughts about this lol
Chapter 1, he was telling his brother to kill him and that he wanted to died. Now that he died, he suddenly said that his brother abandon him and kill him. That doesn't make sense. Also, the way they interact kind of doesn't make sense too. I don't know if it is because of the translation or not. I think mc is dead, but the master probably make him possessed in that white hair dude as a puppets. And how long have mc died, bc it look like he just got kill in a day or couple day, but they talk like he dead for more then a year. Their relationship is also confusing too.
Next, however, the story look good if it have make more sense. Also, i like how the brother is calm and is not a hot head. Usually, when ml (the brother) looking for those they just kill or whatever reason, if they see a suspicious guy or sth that is relate to the problem, they be acting like they will kill that person (which is mc) if they dont tell them the answer. It would be nice if mc just continue to forgot everything and start a new life if he think they abandoned him.