
He couldnāt have possibly loved him the way you keep insisting he should have but he still did love him. Sasya was deeply broken, what more do you want from someone who never got even a sliver of love and instead kept getting shit after shit? He loved him in the past and loves him even more now and has currently recognized that the way he was with Karel wasnāt too great, again, because he had deep rooted mental issues and zero support whatsoever. But sure, that is the backstory

You guys keep using Sasyaās mental illness as a crutch. He did not love Karel. He feels remorse and guilt now that heās realized heās lost the best thing that ever happened to him. Go back and re-read the conversations between Sasya and Julian and pay attention to Sasyaās inner thoughts that followed. He did not love him. Thatās one of the main points. He didnāt because he couldnāt. You guys just make shit up as you go along to fit your narrative.

Itās not using his mental illness as a ācrutchā, itās recognizing that mental health plays a crucial role in human behavior which you and each of you with the mental capacity of a newborn child seems to ignore. Iāve re-read this story many times now and my mind has not changed because I actually pay attention to this storyās details. Funny you mention Julian when in the flashbacks Julian plays a huge part in the misunderstandings between Sasya and Karel, not to mention how he constantly made Sasya feel as though Karel only had lust for him and that their relationship was fickle.

To further my point that Sasya did love him in his own way, in the flashbacks Sasya goes as far as stating that Karel is his family. I donāt know about you but if I consider someone who isnāt blood related to me at all my family, especially when it comes to a lover, you best believe that I love that person a grand deal.
I miss there old relationship