This story crazy

This is so hard to read but I love it. I wanna hate them both but I also feel bad for them and I know that it's all going down hill from here and there's probably going to be a lot more SA but like it's so hard to stop reading this story. I want to just say fuck the seme for being a rapist (according to the foreshadowing) and drop the story to preserve my sanity, SA is usually a deal breaker for me in these stories. But I can't because it's so so so much more complicated than just that and like I don't knowwwwww. I think I might just leave it and come back when it's completed and binge it so I can decide then and there if I want to drop it rather than just wait for updates to see if something redeemable might happen, to save my sanity