Triggering

Ugh my older sister is like Jihwan. It’s ruined my life and my mother’s life. The isolation is real and sickening because once it’s achieved you almost don’t realize it’s happening anymore…like..it’s normalized…horrible, horrible abuse just like this and way way worse is normalized and you live in denial…then you read something like this or see it played out on screen and you want to vomit and can’t think straight without knowing why... Also, the metaphorical and *literal* strangulation is spot on. Fucked up. Idk what it’s called other than abuse. As much as I love my sister’s kids, I would have rather been an only child or had a normal sibling that didn’t chronically severely traumatize me. Children like this need serious intervention early on because their brains are operating very differently than an otherwise neurotypical brain. My sister was actually like Jihwan but more violent. I hate her. The thing that deeply disgusts me, is when I have to tell her I love her. Makes me want to scream or vomit or both.