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This shit had me gripping my seat. I was sweating, tearing up, getting mad BECAUSE WHAT!!! I don't even know whether there are plot holes, or if I'm too stupid to catch every detail, or if the plot holes are on purpose? I don't know but this was one hell of a read. Depicts family life in such an odd but raw way. I'm confused, frustrated but also glad about the ending. It doesn't feel right but at the same time I know it is really the only way to end this. Much needed after the whole mess, so I like it. I want to read this a second time to understand everything better but at the same time, I do not wanna put myself through that rollercoaster of emotions again!! Generally I liked this so much and I was ugly sobbing here and there n this made me feel tons of stuff