even if I love my siblings, I don't love them enough to submit and be reduced as something not even better than trash, I might jump infront of a moving train for them but I'm only doing that bcs it's just a one way ticket to the afterlife without having to feel any pain and go through a suffering far more worse than hell, it sounds selfish bcs it is but I don't even have that much self love for myself as it is and for me to choose myself in that situation instead of saving my only sibling? y'know it's that bad
even if I love my siblings, I don't love them enough to submit and be reduced as something not even better than trash, I might jump infront of a moving train for them but I'm only doing that bcs it's just a one way ticket to the afterlife without having to feel any pain and go through a suffering far more worse than hell, it sounds selfish bcs it is but I don't even have that much self love for myself as it is and for me to choose myself in that situation instead of saving my only sibling? y'know it's that bad