The way I had to force myself to finish these chapters.... My fave character would have to...

The way I had to force myself to finish these chapters.... My fave character would have to be the director bc he seems to be the most moral of the group (but even then, I'm like why tf did he fall for mc? why use ur position as director to force the relationship to start when he was so unwilling?? Don't get me started on the kissing when mc is having a panic attack, like bro wtf; the sex immediately afterwards felt so unnecessary... bros a fucking simp)
If I had to rank the rest, itd be lady who interviewed psycho white hair, then the rando friend of mc, psycho and then mc.
Yes, psycho above mc, bc there really is no greater crime in fiction than being fucking annoying.

I knew mc was aware of psycho's feeling well before the 'reveal' bc it was obvious (continuous flashbacks to kiss between made it obvious he had a decent grasp on how much psycho wants him) BUT mc not only drags the lil psycho's feelings out instead of putting a firm end to it, he also drags out stuff with the director. Ofc, i know white hair psycho is taking advantage of him, the difference is that I also know the reason WHY - his awful obsession with the guy probably stemming from his shit childhood and lack of stability whatever whatever (seen this type of bl top loads, but tho this case feels very caricature and a bit hallow ngl). I have no idea what was going thru the mc's mind the entire time tho and its frustrating. The narration feels clunky and confusing at times and even in the most recent chapter its like, what does mc feel for psycho??? He turned out a major catch (the handsome, rich and much less problematic director) for him. Does he hate psycho, feel guilty, love the guy, just feel lust, like wtf?? For his adopted child?? that he raised????? Like, I just don't fucking get it. Why would you kiss him???? ugh omg