I’m confused as well bro. I think he means he wants to die and see the god Aman? But that wouldn’t really make sense because he said “again” meaning he’s already been there. So maybe he does mean going to the kingdom again because he’s later seen at the end of the chapter with Ken inside Aman
Ver asking if he will meet aman again… does he mean be able to visit the place or is aman also a being we haven’t seen