I'm disappointed about shunji cheating on yasu but I undst that he's being blackmailed and...

I'm disappointed about shunji cheating on yasu but I undst that he's being blackmailed and that his past is rly painful in a way that he grew up being raped by men. Even tho I undst I still has that dull feeling in my heart that yasu was being cheated on. But I also undst yasu isn't exactly a gentleman himself too since at the very beginning he also 'threatened' shunji into hving sex w him cuz he discovered his secret feelings for kousei. However, what bothers me most is I think till now kousei still holds more importance than yasu in shunji's heart. I know Yasu wouldn't give Shunji up no matter what but still I'd rather Shunji just tell him straight in the face that he can never get over Kousei (cuz well tbh kousei has always been there for him since young and that feeling for a first love wouldn't just disappear so easily). If shunji's gna hurt yasu by being ambiguous n that yasu will forever live w the uncerntainty I'd rather shunji just hurt him outright. I know that shunji does love yasu but it's just if it's not wholeheartedly or completely I think it's just more painful as tho yasu has to share shunji w kousei even tho kousei is unaware of shunji's feelings or that shunji will choose kousei over yasu anytime.