Ok so what I’m interpreting is that Chaon is so fucked up by guilt of almost accidentally causing Sehan’s death that he’s super susceptible to manipulation from Sehan(who is already rly good at manipulating people?)
Chaon already experienced panic attacks/anxiety attacks related to his guilt & of almost losing Sehan, and Sehan takes advantage of that. Sehan doesn’t want Chaon to become independent so he has sabotaged Chaon’s every job, forcing Chaon to be financially reliant on Sehan (which worsens Chaon’s.guilt and anxiety, possibly contributing to his doormat attitude.)
Chaon is obviously not a doormat for everyone, he seems to have little to none emotional permanence around Sehan (hating Sehan bc he was raped, but immediately forgiving him after a bit of time/pressure.)
Chaon has lived with & around people who don’t respect his consent & boundaries, (his fling, Sehan etc,) so probably doesn’t respect himself a lot.
Most likely, Chaon’s dissociating to some degree because he feels guilty for Sehan and doesn’t think he should/deserves to hate Sehan, he puts up w a LOT because he’s used to his boundaries being ignored, he lacks self-respect, feels a lot of guilt, vulnerable and is anxious.
Ok so what I’m interpreting is that Chaon is so fucked up by guilt of almost accidentally causing Sehan’s death that he’s super susceptible to manipulation from Sehan(who is already rly good at manipulating people?)
Chaon already experienced panic attacks/anxiety attacks related to his guilt & of almost losing Sehan, and Sehan takes advantage of that. Sehan doesn’t want Chaon to become independent so he has sabotaged Chaon’s every job, forcing Chaon to be financially reliant on Sehan (which worsens Chaon’s.guilt and anxiety, possibly contributing to his doormat attitude.)
Chaon is obviously not a doormat for everyone, he seems to have little to none emotional permanence around Sehan (hating Sehan bc he was raped, but immediately forgiving him after a bit of time/pressure.)
Chaon has lived with & around people who don’t respect his consent & boundaries, (his fling, Sehan etc,) so probably doesn’t respect himself a lot.
Most likely, Chaon’s dissociating to some degree because he feels guilty for Sehan and doesn’t think he should/deserves to hate Sehan, he puts up w a LOT because he’s used to his boundaries being ignored, he lacks self-respect, feels a lot of guilt, vulnerable and is anxious.