Keep in mind, ima only on chapter 24. These are only my thoughts only after this far. I’m just an over-thinker, I’ve always been like this with whatever I read. I try to find the smallest of details and try to find the smallest comment by a character to try and make assumptions based on those details.
completely understandable. i had the same impression in the beginning that he seems to be very ‘nonchalant’ and ‘self-interested’ (though rather than dislike, it just irked me) and i continued simply because i like the mc. but continuing it [SPOILER BY THE WAY] i came to appreciate it a lot actually.
i like how they fall in love in a slow rhythm and that it wasn’t all fireworks and love at first sight. like, before he knew it, he fell in love and he even had the same thought as you! (like what if the other wasn’t drunk? what if they never etc etc) but you know what, everything in reality or fantasy is a series of coincidence and if you think about it, coincidence and fate work the same way, no? predetermined or not, it already happened and that’s how they gonna fall in love anyway and i think that’s plenty beautiful.
I’m probably the only one who feels like this but I’ll state my opinion never the less.
I really like golden retriever type semes but for some reason I really don’t like this seme. He has all the qualities that are think are sweet and loveable in a person but in the back of my mind, smt about him makes me wanna hate him or finds him annoying. From the beginning to where I am(chapter 24), I have been feeling this. I thought about it and I thought of some reasons that might be it. One reason, I think it might be the fact that it kinda seems like seme doesn’t take love super serious. He has had many fall in love with him and has never truely fallen deep in love himself like those who did for him(at least, that’s what I speculate). This can explicitly shown when seme says he himself has never confessed but always had other do so or when seme confesses to uke expecting everything to go well just because uke likes him even when his friend warned him of the implications and how it isn’t that simple.(it could be considered inexperience but it is still reckless) Another reason, might be that he is super kind to everyone(smt uke stated before) and so really uke was never so special to begin with, the only reason he was hanging out with uke was because he knew uke was rejecting loving him or trying to distance himself. Another thing might be the fact that, if uke didn’t happen to get drunk that one night, nothing would have happened, seme would continue his life without ever meeting/knowing uke and uke would eventually let go of his love or suffer trying. I just…. Idk, I thought I would really like him, but for some reason I have this underlying subtle but intense dislike for seme. It’s complicated, I think he’s really cute but I also don’t at the same time. Hmmmm I’m probably reading too much into the lines but I just can’t stop T-T. It’s how I think.