Damn it turned into a rant sorry guys
No its ok, not all mothers are "real" mothers , it will pass and you will find people who really care about you
Your feelings are valid without needing anyone to say so. Your pain doesn't stop being real just because one person wants to belittle your experiences. A family member acting cruel means basically nothing about you or your worth, and it's not your fault if they aren't capable of seeing it. It doesn't matter if it's a parent or a lover or a stranger- they don't get to decide anything about you as a person.
If someone can't tell the difference between gold or plastic, does the gold become less valuable? No.
I know my kids are gold... and I can tell you are, too. Other people will see it. Your mom can't see the treasure in front of her, but that doesn't reflect on you. That's her problem.
You're entirely valid in your own right.
I really have no words y'all so sweet. Both of you are right I hope I'll get to heal and find people who really care about me
Chapter 39 hits a bit too hard after bawling my eyes out and my mother saying she doesn't care about my tears so I should try to cry harder because it doesn't matter