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I think it goes to show just how little Nirasawa values himself. He doesn't see himself being objectified as a big deal, and would be willing to endure any emotional pain if it would benefit Kabu in some small way. That's mostly why we see Kabu getting angry at him in their actual relationship. Idiots in love

Edit: Okay yeah I found out that Kabu found out, glad he scolded Nirasawa. Cause Nirasawa did wrong.
Can someone clarify why Nirasawa (Uke) let Kouki masterbate on him? To me, it feels like cheating at least on a physical aspect because Kabu (Seme) doesn’t know. I get that Nirasawa may not like Kouki and just did it to pay back, but ugh it felt so wrong. I hope Kabu knows about that scene, cause I don’t like how Kouki is behaving that way towards Nirasawa.
Nirasawa loves only Kabu, but he needs to draw a line with Kouki, like a hundred percent. Like is Nirasawa going to let people do sexual stuff to him or use him for masterbation every time there’s a pay back needed?
Plus Nirasawa didn’t really know if Kouki was going to just masterbate, and he just turned around, so it felt like he was going to let Kouki penetrate him. He even let Kouki press his nasty against his hole.
Stupid. I really feel that this is cheating. Yikes!
I also don’t really like Kouki. And besides all that, this Yaoi is truly one of the best ones I’ve read. Kabu and Nirasawa may be toxic, but they have a fun dynamic.