Spoilers for Chapter 121: Small Analysis/Explanation on Skylar

I think deep down, Skylar feels guilty for what he said and how things between them went down. After finding out Cirrus was dropping out, he later started thinking about ways Cirrus was definitely showing him love, bringing him back to what he told Cirrus. Then he starts trying to console himself by saying it was Cirrus’ fault for lying, trying to completely absolve him of any blame. But I think it’s clear that Skylar wants Cirrus to come back, not necessarily they get back into a relationship immediately, but just to be there around each other. My mind is kind of jumbled up, but I hope y’all get it ;-; I mean, if he didn’t want Cirrus to come back deep down inside of him, why would he suddenly talk about how he doesn’t have the “right” to tell him to come back. Not to mention, he’s definitely trying to avoid the whole thing by pretending it just doesn’t exist, pushing his memories of Cirrus down. It’s clear to see that he sees Cirrus everywhere, but just tries to continue walking ahead. In the background before he got on the bus, we clearly see Cirrus there as well. Idk if he was rlly there, but even so, I think it’s meant to show how much Skylar is deep in his thoughts about Cirrus to the point of not even noticing him there, and him getting on the bus, not even looking out the window to see him represents Cirrus “haunting” him, in a way. And when he says “I don’t know anything” at the very end, I think he’s referring to what he said to Cirrus, that he knows nothing about love. I also feel like a part of him feels “responsible” for Cirrus dropping out.

Man, these two make me feel things so hard I wanna kill myself. I want to note that when I talk about “blame,” I’m not trying to say that either of them are 100% in the wrong and are fully to blame for things. Both of them have their reasons for acting the way they did and saying the shit they said, but remember that reasoning doesn’t equal justification. Honestly, what’s best for these two is to just take a break. If the author gives us a time skip, yay honestly, cuz that seems to be the healthiest option. Sometimes, people just meet the right one at the wrong time.