HELP ME FIND PLEASEEEEE

OKAY so there’s this yaoi it’s new i believe it was on like top manga or top yaoi and it’s about this guy who has a crush on his friend but i think he gets married so he starts keeping a distance between each other and because he often leaves to get railed he goes out and hooks up with this one fine shyt and they both have an interest in BDSM and master Slave kinda relationship I need to find this my brain is in scrambles right now tryna figure it out
ANOTHER THING THAT COULD HELP MC STAYS OUT LATE GETTING RAILED BY FINE SHYT AND COMES HOME THE NEXT DAY TO HIS FIRST LOVE AT HIS HOUSE AND HIS FRIST LOVE STARTS QUESTIONING HIM AND IS LIKE WHERE WERE U I WAS SO WORRIED Y DIDNT U COME HOME AND MC IS ALL LIKE OH Y DO U CARE UR NOT MY LOVER OR BROTHER AND THEN GOES TO HIS ROOM TO CALL FINE SHYT AND IS ALL LIKE RAIL ME PLEASE OR SOME SHIT LIKE THAT
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