Yeah nothing in this story made sense for some time
MC: loves the emperor but knows his place. He shall not covet what is out of his reach and what never meant to be his. Such remains the soulless little soldier doing an impeccable job and being the singular. As by simply being special to the Emperor, as an impressive work, is far more enough and should be the goal. Don't let his fickle words of feelings and of love sway you away and create unrealized expectations. Stay grounded in reality. Do not hope. Do not wish. Do not seek. Never let yourself win over by love, as it would be your dismiss.
ML: I love him so much. I don't want to share him. I want him to love me back. Please, don't reject me. You are mine and I shall be yours. Who cares about the damn crown? I am here abusing my power for the sake of love only. Teehee. :)
And the ML seems to be renowned as a Art enjoyer, theater, poetry, books, music... he does it all. So yah. Quite the way to express... his sincerity I guess?
Let me go wild.
MC:
I serve the Emperor with unwavering loyalty, knowing my place in the grand scheme of things. I dare not covet what is beyond my reach, nor yearn for what was never meant to be mine. I am but a soldier—soulless, steadfast, and singular in purpose. To be recognized, to exist as a masterpiece in his eyes, is enough. It must be enough. I will not be swayed by fleeting words of affection or the illusion of love. Such desires are a betrayal of my duty and my reality. Hope not. Wish not. Seek not. To let love triumph would be my undoing.
ML:
I love you. More than the crown, more than power, more than anything in this world. I don’t care about what’s proper or what’s expected—I won’t share you. I want you to be mine, as I am already yours. Don’t push me away. Don’t reject me. I’ve bent the weight of an empire to chase this love. Let me have you. Let us have this.
As the president of my country, what the fuck lol i couldnt even make sense of it towards the end, i wasnt able to understand the mc or the ml's feelings and then they threw in some dumbass poetry book inbetween as if that helps with anything at all?