nah don't care here's the thing greenhair was probably 14-16 years old when the shit went down mc was probably 10-12ish while yes a teenager is still a kid by adult standards they're old enough to know when they fucked up and apologize, and it was totally understandable that ***the younger child you just choked lost his trust for you*** if greenhair had apologized, explained that he was scared, and changed his behavior, he **might** have been able to win mc's trust back eventually. he didn't. in fact, his pride got hurt bc "now you're looking at me like I'm trash/a bug now too" <- that is ego. then you raped him on top of it? and even when you're getting beat and you think you're gonna die rather than thinking about that you're sorry, that "oh this must have been how he felt when I was hurting him, I'm such a bastard" you just self-rationalize some more??? about how "oh I only did it bc I wanted to see your smile/be by your side" bitch that ain't it you don't like him you just liked that he smiled for you and didn't want to lose that validation bc you're a pathetic sack of shit fuck outta here
nah don't care
here's the thing
greenhair was probably 14-16 years old when the shit went down
mc was probably 10-12ish
while yes a teenager is still a kid by adult standards they're old enough to know when they fucked up and apologize, and it was totally understandable that ***the younger child you just choked lost his trust for you***
if greenhair had apologized, explained that he was scared, and changed his behavior, he **might** have been able to win mc's trust back eventually. he didn't. in fact, his pride got hurt bc "now you're looking at me like I'm trash/a bug now too" <- that is ego.
then you raped him on top of it? and even when you're getting beat and you think you're gonna die rather than thinking about that you're sorry, that "oh this must have been how he felt when I was hurting him, I'm such a bastard" you just self-rationalize some more??? about how "oh I only did it bc I wanted to see your smile/be by your side"
bitch that ain't it
you don't like him you just liked that he smiled for you and didn't want to lose that validation bc you're a pathetic sack of shit
fuck outta here