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He is not self pity tho. If he was a self pity person then he wouldn't have date those loser exes. He is just insecure, hurts, too nice and constantly blaming himself for other's faults. He never has anyone love him like the way the ml does even though he deserves it and YOU, you deserves to be loved too.
I am dumping this in the comments to get rid of something I've been thinking about a lot. It's a bit about the mc, I like him and the ml (the old guy so sexy lol) over all. And I loved this story
But
I think I might be a jerk because I get so annoyed with certain characters and their behaviours which another normal person would likely feel sympathy for. The MC midway through the story frustrated me so much.
I know he went through pretty horrible lovers. But everytime I see a self pitying person to that degree in any story I just get mad at them and then I feel bad immediately after because that's horrible. Insecurity is something I can empathize with but I have this complicated feelings towards people (irl too) who sulk or self pity a lot. Probably because I see a bit of my younger self ( I hated myself in middle school). God I feel horrible for being pissed at characters like mc because they didn't do anything wrong.
Anyways I hope grow personally so I can be more gracious instead of being heartless.
I had to write my feelings and thoughts down, I feel lighter now lol