it's a toxic familiar relationship, even if they treat you like that you can't help but love them, because they manipulate you verbally, even if they hit you or psychologically abuse you they will make you feel guilty if you treat THEM bad, because one second they'll be yelling at you and the next minute they'll be treating you like a king/queen. I had that relationship with my mom and all i wanted was to leave her in that house alone and be happy by myself but at the same time i couldn't leave her bc she always manipulated me into thinking that she gave me food, a house, etc etc, so i couldn't do such thing to her cause she always was the "good" person when in reality all she did to me was to push me down constantly and treat me however she wanted whenever she wanted, even if i never did anything bad. It really is a hard situation
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....the fuck ! Why the hell would a "loving" grandma be like that!?