
Dude no. I had the same mentality but when you think like that you are already closing and locking doors that were actually unlocked and waiting for you. Don’t even say you won’t be here much longer. Not sure if you know but even from a biological standpoint. The total number of possible people that could be born is astronomically large but you were one of the ones that were born. This means there will never be anyone born that will be identical to you. We’re the lucky ones, we’re the ones that get to die, because you only get to die having lived. Most people who could ever exist will never even be born. You are alive you exist, so smell the flowers, drink in the sunsets and sunrises, and read all the bl or whatever you want. You won the lottery literally, even tho you might not feel that right now. Most people will never even know that there was a lottery. Live your life unabashedly and as fully as you can.
Sucks that I'll never be able to experience this type of love man