Kinda nostalgic

Yoo Won's childhood was kind of nostalgic for me and actually strikes deep. I used to never really understand how to befriend someone, and spent my childhood in isolation (Generally, my parents weren't home often, my brothers hardly talked to me, when they did, I was mostly bullied) I didn't talk much to anyone, and lacked common sense on how to interact with others. No one really talked to me, and I didn't know how to. Then, I had depression and studied to curb with it, my grades were horrible before then, and I started to score well. Soon, after some effort getting top of my class. All of a sudden, I just felt that more people started to want to talk to me, about academics etc. At first I still didn't understand why would people change so quickly at the time and because of all the bad experiences before then, I can't handle any form of compliments well and felt even more estranged to others.Initially, I thought that I could make friends this way, after a year or two I realized I was wrong. I could still remember feeling disgusted the first time a teacher or a classmate complimented me. Before then, I was showered with the eyes of 'lost hope' and always shouldered the blame when something bad happened, I would even offer the possibility that I might be the one at fault even when I didn't do anything wrong and be punished. I still remember feeling hopeless, and at loss when others look at me with strange eyes as if saying ' you're better off, why are you complaining' when I try to explain my feelings and troubles.
I'm much better now then before, but it still really strikes a cord.