Wtf...

Fuck...I read the raws and I'm a sobbing mess cuz I don't understand anything...all I know is that in the flash back...our younger brother was approached by a older man. He brought our uke home and proceeded to rape him. There was blood and he was a crying and sobbing mess...but if I'm not wrong he kept on coming back and proceeded to 'sell' himself to fill that empty void or something his brother left in him. But even whilst being raped or selling himself...he always thought about the other party as his brother...I don't know if it's a sense of security but HELL no it's like what he saw as a child, his brother making out with his gf. That scene was etched into his mind and ruining his innocence by second. I don't know exactly what. Since I don't understand japanese...but I wanna know how he came to be like that...it's Soo damn pitiful and twisted broo...why do I have to read 2/3 BL Psychological Manga in a day y'all????