If you're someone who struggles with intrusive thoughts then Takamada is a really relatable character in some aspects. Especially the parts about refusing to meet loved ones half way on any of those intrusive thoughts out of fear you might hurt them badly
I too almost dropped this on the early chapters it was a struggle to go past the hard parts but it became a great read once their relationship was becoming wholesome ヾ(❀╹◡╹)ﾉ~
I agree, though I don't blame people who still find that early part of their relationship too distracting or too hard to get past :')
I dropped this ages ago when it started coming out and I randomly decided that I'd give it another try and honestly I'm so glad I did