seems he’s having an existential crisis—coming to terms with the realization that he matters too. He never allowed himself to feel this way before. Now, facing the idea that the Lord is willing to keep him,that he is meant to stay is frightening. It forces him to confront himself and his desires. Does he even want this? Is he ready to be happy? Can he accept that his existence is worthy of joy?i like this that it goes this deep wow never expected that it would knowledge his inner struggles too
My heart is hurting for him. He has never felt real joy in his life before and now that he can't die (his final goal for the longest time), he is helpless and lost.
seems he’s having an existential crisis—coming to terms with the realization that he matters too. He never allowed himself to feel this way before. Now, facing the idea that the Lord is willing to keep him,that he is meant to stay is frightening. It forces him to confront himself and his desires. Does he even want this? Is he ready to be happy? Can he accept that his existence is worthy of joy?i like this that it goes this deep wow never expected that it would knowledge his inner struggles too