HELP ME FIND!! :,)

Can someone help me find this bl manga where the top doesn't like it when the uke begs? I mean not the "take me back" kind of begging but the kind of begging in sex where they tend to say "more! More!". I remember it has something to do with the his trauma with his mom, where his mom keeps begging him(not in sex) that's why he gets turned off whenever an uke begs him for more because he feels like he isn't doing enough. I know it's pretty vague but that's pretty much all I remember T^T If anyone knows what I'm talking abt please do tell me, thank you! :)