This is disturbing af

I couldnt wait for the next chapter so i did the mistake of reading the novel. And let me tell you this, despite having read hundreds of fucked up shit novels before, this was the most disturbing of them all. I literally felt trapped reading it. I feel zero sympathy for jaehyun, even after learning what jiwook did to him. I fucking hate jiwook for what he did and he def deserved that gang rape, but it didnt stop at that. More than anything, what actually disturbed me the most was that he had absolutely zero memories of what happend. In his mind he didnt know what he did wrong that he had to be turned into a fucking dog. I kept remembering oldboy movie while reading the chapters he was locked up in that room and it felt DISGUSTING. And you know what? Jaehyun doesnt even LIKE jiwook. Hes just using him to relive physical and mental frustration. He doesnt even pass as a human being on his eyes. It was like I was reading a true crime post about someone getting locked up and being used as a sex toy for years.
This was the first time I had skipped smut scenes. i would get really really sad reading it. Theres noway anyone consider that hot. I dont even think the purpose of those scenes was to be hot.
At least i was grateful that rape wasnt romanticized and it was portrayed as disgusting.