Are you okay now? I hope you are okay, it just really sadens me that all these things are real. I have friends that are going through depression and do self harm and I always try to help but there are times when it gets hard for me too. But i always know that these things happen and that you just have to fight no matyer how hard it gets. I hope you are ok!
I hope that you don't ever think that it's your fault because it definitely isn't!!! Get away from toxic people including your husband! Live your life to the fullest and never stick around people who don't hope the best and help you! There's much better people out there to be with you. Never give up on yourself, ever!!

this manga brings back memories of my rape and how my mom threw me to her husband so that he would leave her alone. I totally understand you get to a point where it is all to much and you just need to end it. Because you look at your past and you look at your present and you can predict your future and all you see is endless suffering. and you say fuck it this life isnt worth living anymore.
The messed up part is that later my mother accuses me to stealing her husband and my husband when he found out accused me of seducing my stepfather. So yeah I understand Bum