tbh

i've come around to this season 2 storyline. i don't like it but i get it.

First: MC tried to kill ML. He realized he couldn't because he'd caught feels.

- in a delusional world (i want this world), ML and MC would have had a happy ever after. Which i would have loved cos i wanted a lovey dovey healing arc but...

- in reality, ML has killed anyone whose ever attempted to take his life. He's a ruthless psycho who easily kills. MC is the first one he let live. So in a sense, all his goodwill was expended entirely on holding back from killing MC. It was one thing to suspect MC had it out for him--ML probably found it funny--but it's another that MC actually tried to kill him (and ML would have actually let MC go through with it). Especially with the context, where the two had gotten close and emotionally intimate.

So MC trying to choke him was now a betrayal. And ML is pissed that he even let himself grow so soft. And obviously they can't go back to how they were before so here we are in purgatory. Rape rape rape.

Plus ML killed MC's whole family (and i rmbr the reasoning being that his father wasn't even a criminal. he was a good man who supported the wrong faction)... and it's really hard to get around that (i don't like this fact anymore than you i swear).

so i'm sending thoughts and prayers to the plot i'll let this marinate and come back when it all ends