Honestly I'm really conflicted as for him to be the ml or not I don't want him as the ml n...

Honestly I'm really conflicted as for him to be the ml or not
I don't want him as the ml not because he was kinda a jerk and she's hurt and the usual but because he loves summer so much and his kids too it feels like they have their own little world and he's barely holding on cause of the kids too. She deserves much more then that, she suffered enough. Now she deserves a love that is only hers, with no lingering affection/attachment, a love that is not this broken. She needs to heal too and I really do feel bad for him, like genuinely but I don't think I'll be able to get rid of this uneasiness if he becomes the ml. He's not a red flag, he had his priorities straight, didn't waver, didn't treat her badly and stuck to whatever was agreed upon. So I do want him to regret but he also deserves rest but he'll only get that when he's with summer and I Know how complicated yet simple all of this is but as I said I'm really conflicted
I really don't know what I want from this
I started reading this because of the angst and to see the regret arc unfold and was ready to hate the ml but I just can't