yi zaha i love you so much

yi zaha the man you are. he's so hot in the non-typical non-conventional way that i can't explain. i don't even know why i like him so much. perhaps his weirdness, his derangement, or his strength all the same time. i think one factor is really the fact that the author doesn't give him explicit fanservice so we don't really see him show a lot of skin. and you know what they say, the more they hide the more i imagine. i don't even fantasize about him having a very built body, rather i imagine that he has a fit and lean body with just the right amount of muscles where it matters. the love i hold for him is one where i would rather just admire from afar than be able to give away my presence to him. i wouldn't sacrifice myself for him, but i would spend years honing my art skills just to be able to show a fragment of his beauty, because i would never be able to capture the essence of his very being in a simple painting.